|October 2009 August 2012|
As I was looking at the picture of me in this shirt, I couldn't help but think about my weight loss journey. You see, everyone has issues in their lives. Those areas of life that we try to tuck away because we don't want others to know that we're struggling with something. No matter what the issue is, it will eventually surface, no matter how hard we try to cover it up, but when those issues result in carrying around extra physical weight on our bodies, it's impossible to hide at all. You can dress yourself in the nicest clothes, wear the most expensive accessories, and sport a trendy haircut, but when you are overweight, none of those things can mask the fact that some facet of your life has gotten out of control. The photo of me conducting a marriage vow renewal ceremony from October 2009 shows how hard I tried to look my best, yet there's no mistaking that something is definitely going on behind the scenes.
I understand that some people deal with medical-related issues that have caused weight gain and that is an entirely different situation altogether, but that is not the case for everyone who deals with their weight. Some people eat to dull some hurt from past the past or a current fear, or they turn to food for comfort after a bad day. I grew up in an environment where indulgent foods were plentiful and physical activity was non-existent and got stuck in a cycle of eating more and moving less. I figured that since I had always been heavy, that would just be my lot in life. I've known people who used to be an athlete or were regularly involved in some type of activity that required eating a lot to keep up with the physical demands but then that season ended, yet they still eat the same way. Others simply love food and have a hard time regulating how much they allow themselves. The list of food and weight related issues goes on and on...
The beautiful thing I've discovered in my life, is that when I stopped and faced my issues, and I mean I've really been taking a look at the hard truths in an honest and straight forward manner, well, that is what has given me the power to change. As long as I kept trying to convince myself that the habits I had engaged in for so long were okay, it was impossible to live the life I so deeply wanted to be living. By facing my issues, I am overcoming them by leaps and bounds!
Freedom can be found, but only if you face your issues!